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- My Life and Everything In It -
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4.24.2007
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This is going to be one helluva random post...
I'm almost done with this semester of school. I think I did pretty well and seeing as I only had one class it would be kind of sad if I didn't.
I have a new job...again. I work at Fifth Avenue Tuxedos. Some days I love it, some days I want to rip the heads off of high school prom boys. I have worked there for four weeks now and my boss already gave me a raise. She loves me, so that's good.
I am registered to attend Utah State this fall. I am excited, nervous and unsure about this. I'm not sure how I am going to be paying for this. I filled out FAFSA and didn't get a damn thing. If a widowed mother and her broker than broke daughter can't get some funding for college...who can? I don't get it. I'm excited because my sister, cousin and I found a cute apartment across the street from campus. 3 bedroom, 2 bathroom, walk in closets, pool and hot tub. Neat. I'm worried about being back at school full time and finding a job that will let me work the rest of the time.
Samantha is now eighteen months old. She is ADORABLE you guys. SOOO cute. I love to see her!
I'm still single. what the crap? This is the longest amount of time I have been single since I was 12 years old. I'm not kidding. Oh well...someday. For now life is uncomplicated.
I think that's it? For now?
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- Nothing new... -
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2.15.2007
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Wow, it's been a long time.
I'm afraid I really don't have much to say...I hope everyone is doing well!
Oh, and for those of you who are local...heard of any job openings?
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1.29.2007
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Favorite kind of cereal: I'm not a big fan but I go for a bowl of peanut butter crunch every now and then.
What animal or insect disgusts you the most? spiders and things with feathers
What do you need more of right now? money
What is the hardest thing for you to do? find and keep a stable job i guess. oh, and be positive
Deodorant brand: whatever my mom buys
How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? one hour
What is your most prized object? some things of my dads, my car
What are you thankful you're not doing now? well my scanner isn't working...so I'm glad I'm not scanning
If you talked in your sleep, what would you say? couldn't say...
What is your favorite drink? Dr pepper, water, milk. in that order
Favorite way to eat potatoes? Mashed with tons of turkey gravy
If you could be a character in any novel, who would you be? Ummmm
Favorite ice cream toppings: I don't really like ice cream, if i do eat it it's usually plain vanilla
Where do you want to spend the rest of your life? ??
What do you bring most to a friendship? honesty
On a scale of 1-10, how hip are you? hip?! hip, huh? totally a 10
What kind of music makes you want to get up and sing? punk/ska/emo/rock
What are you an expert in? sleeping over 10 hours
What have you tried and simply were not good at? singing, knitting
Favorite movie line? "Here's your boooks"
What is your "theme song"? Don't know
What is your most annoying habit? I pop my shoulder blades. Honest.
If fat, calories, etc. weren't an issue, what food would you feast on? Doritos and beef jerky
How much can you bench press? NO idea
What fictional character would you like to meet? Fictional? I don't know...
What is the ultimate vacation? I want to go to Europe
What is the best thing about your job? NOTHING (I just quit)
What is the worst thing about your job? The repetition
Whose ideas totally conflict with yours? Brandon, kid I used to hang out with
What cosmetic surgery would you like? Lipo
What is the last movie that made your eyes tear up? The Holiday, HAHA
What super-power would you like? Fly
What would you change about your high school years? Nothing, I grew
What would you change about your appearance? My stomach, my hair
Would you rather be smart, rich, or beautiful? smart enough to get rich
If you named your home, what would you name it? I don't have one
What room do you want to add to your home? Bigger bedrooms, walk in closets
What advice would you give to the President? I wouldn't
What character attribute do you admire most? honesty
Where do you usually buy your clothes? Kohls, Zumies
What song describes your present relationship? None
What is the nicest thing you have ever bought somebody? Prob Ben's ipod. Ha. Or my moms GPS
How would you spend $1000? School
What do you want to change about your life? the stress
Who is your best friend? My Mom, Brit, Dave J, Amber
What would you like to accomplish this year? Get back to school full time
What book has had the greatest impact on your life?
What do you do everyday? eat to much
What food do you refuse to eat? carrots
What one word would you use to describe your current relationship? non existent
What one word describes your life? unsure
NOW IT'S YOUR TURN!!!
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1.26.2007
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Quick update, I'm at work and I'm not actually allowed to be online.
..I hate my new job. I sit and scan paper. Eight hours a day.
..I am turning in college aplications...they say "full time student" on them. (!!!!)
..I went to Vegas and Arizona last weekend. It was so nice to be out of Utah. I got on the Big Shot on top of the stratoshpere and wimped out. I have never wimped out of a ride. I went with a couple. Don't go on a road trip with a couple unless you have someone to keep you company also.
..My little sister will be home this weekend!
..I'm still gaining, and gaining and gaining.
..Ben officially lives in California now.
..Did I mention I hate my new job?
..I saw Sam on Tuesday. She is SO cute. She walks like a PRO and she even talks a lot more and she is so SWEET. I freakin love that kid.
..I need a new job
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- More bad news -
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1.18.2007
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Ben just texted me (guess he didn't have the guts to call) to tell me he just took a permanant position...in California.
Thank you, Ben. For wasting the last year of my life.
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- I'm not sure when -
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1.15.2007
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 Me at twenty years old. Right now I am a daughter, a birthmother, a sister, a friend. I am an employee by day and a student by night. My current goals include doing well in school and finding a good job (again). My dreams involve leaving Utah, finding someone to fall in love with and becoming a mother. Things of importance to me include my family, my friends and getting my education.  Me at eighteen. I was a daughter of a newly widowed mother, a student, a friend and a roommate. I attended school full time and worked part time nights and weekends. I had very few goals, if any. Things of importance to me were my friends, and forgetting home and the pain that I, at the time, associated with home.  Chan, me and adorable baby Mikayla. I believe I was seventeen when this picture was taken but I may have been sixteen. At the time I was a bishops daughter, a caretaker to a sick father, a shoulder for a grieving mother, a teenager with severe depression that I didn't yet know how to control. My main goal was getting away. Things of importance to me were people who supported me and my family, my long time boyfriend and my drivers license. Oh, and that studded belt. I went through five of those belts in high school.  Fifteen years old. Happy, "popular", outgoing, friendly. I cared about how I did in school, cared about how I looked, cared about getting out and being with my friends. My family was happy and I was well cared for. If I could go back to any one year of my life I would go back to year fifteen. (Note the belt) I was going back and reading some of my older blogs and journals and it amazes me how much I have changed. How I have gone back and fourth from happiness to unhappiness. I'm still trying to figure out what I want for myself and how to go about getting it. Hopefully I continue to change, and hopefully it's for the better. So...anyone heard about any open receptionist jobs yet? I hate being unemployed.
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- Is it really only Friday? -
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1.12.2007
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Monday I lost my job. I didn't do anything wrong, they just don't need me. I have been sending out resumes like crazy. I hope to be able to get something in reception again. Not really sure how I'm going to make my car payment/pay my six months of car insurance. Hmmm.
Two things on my mind almost constantly:
1. Getting out of Utah. I wish I could get a receptionist job somewhere else and just live outside of Utah for awhile. For six months? A year? I just want out of here!
2. My weight. Someone help me get my motivation back. I can't find it ANYWHERE.
Anyone know of someone who needs a receptionist?
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- Bold -
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1.02.2007
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In bold if I've done it.
(I'm pretty dull. I lied about ONE. I'm not ready to admit to it.)
01. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
o2. Swum with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Ridden in a Ferrari
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said "I love you" and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and seen the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to an Olympics game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby's diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten drunk on Dom Perignon
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can (about twice a week)
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was drunk
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched wild whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Taken a midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day (welcome to alli's depression)
60. Played touch football
61. Gone snorkeling in the Caribbean
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theater
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Appeared on television as a featured guest
83. Received flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Kissed on the first date
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house
91. Been in a combat zone
92. Buried one/both of your parents
93. Been on a cruise ship
94. Spoken more than one language fluently
95. Performed in Rocky Horror
96. Raised children
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sung loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
105. Published one or more books
106. Lost 100 pounds
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Touched a stingray
110. Broken someone's heart
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a T.V. game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on an African photo safari
115. Had a facial part pierced other than your ears
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had major surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school
131. Parasailed
132. Touched a cockroach
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad - and the Odyssey
135. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions (not yet, i plan to)
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
145. Had a booth at a street fair
146. Dyed your hair
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone's life
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- This Christmas -
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12.28.2006
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Was spent in bed. Headaches, body aches, chills, hot flashes, a high fever and a sore throat. I was out of bed on Monday for a total of about 30 minutes. This year, Christmas just passed me by.
Sigh.
This morning I was still feeling weak and I was having to lay on the couch about every 5 minutes while getting ready. My Mom leaves for work about 10 minutes before I do. This morning when I went outside I noticed that my car windows had already been scraped off and I was able to just get in my car and go. My Mom is so nice, she probably didn't even think anything of it...but it made me cry. Thanks Mom.
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- Christmas Time -
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12.22.2006
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Nothing to say today. I'm excited to have 4.5 days off for Christmas. I have all my shopping done (Ben was last, he was hard). Here's a picture of the adorable child:
Merry Christmas Everyone!
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