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- WPSB. -
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9.07.2006
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This week a relationship with one of my best friends fell apart. I'm so mad at him it's blinding me, but that will fade eventually. Right now I feel such an extreme hatred towards him, but I wont hate him forever. However, I don't expect the hurt to fade any time soon. My heart is just hurting, I feel like there is a hole in my life and not just anyone will be able to fill it. The part that hurts the worst is the fact that he doesn't care. He doesn't care that he lost me, and he doesn't care that I am hurting.
I have decided to sell my car. I have only been driving it for three years, but I am sick of all the maintanance owning an older car requires. I can't go car shopping alone, and my Mom is always running around doing something so it could be awhile before I find something new. I'm hoping for a Mazda Protege5. Not a Protege, a Protege5. I'm not going any older than a 2001.
Monday through Friday I work from 8:30 to 5:30. Here is what work means for me: Coming in and sitting and my brand new, huge and extremley expensive desk. Turning on my brand new computer that no one else has ever touched. Logging onto myspace. Checking my e-mail, IMing friends. On an average of about every 10 minutes, I answer the phone. I either take a message or transfer the line to the person they are calling for. Sometimes someone will ask me to make a copy. Every couple of days I check the mail. Most of my day is spent surfing the web. I get bored. I also get paid extremley well and have been told to expect a raise in December. Okay, I shouldn't complain.
When I get home I eat with my Mom, and go to bed. It's rare that I see friends or watch movies or go shopping. I usually just want to go to sleep. This drives my Mom crazy. Being tired 24/7 drives me crazy. I did buy a gym pass the other day and I hope to talk myself into actually showing up at the gym soon. My weight is constantly on my mind and I'm sick of it.
That's it.
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